Life with lots and lots of candy.

Wow. Its been a while. Hey there, long time no see, type, talk...

Last time I updated, I was on my way home for Thanksgiving, which was not pleasant, and left me with a bad taste in my mouth for the much longer visit over the Christmas holiday. Mom was in a snit, and made everyone tense and miserable, and I didnt really get to see anyone because I was up for 27 hrs straight ( I traveled for 14 of them, and I can't sleep on planes) so right after dinner, which we had about 30 minutes after I arrived home, I promptly fell asleep. Black Friday shopping was a sign of the times, and the bad economy... people were everywhere, but there were no good deals to be found...

Fast forward to Christmas! Christmas was an equally long journey, but this time it was well worth it, I had a great time coming home and spending time with family, and finally getting to see my FRIENDS!! I got Yesterdog, Culver's, Marie Catrib's (Turkish coffee, Adult Grilled Cheese, and Cabbage Soup, yum!), every kind of delicious food I was lacking, i GOT. I even managed to talk the owner of Yesterdog into selling me JUST the chili to take home!! I got $600 worth of shoes for $150, I got a super cute party dress that I need to find a place to wear, and just had a good time, there were a lot of late nights, or rather, early mornings...

So 2009 hasn't really started out that great, my iPhone was stolen at work, and cost me $430 to replace, so I was broke for a while, and I am finally getting back on my feet, I have paid for a bridesmaid dress, my flight home, and I am currently working on shoes for the wedding, next comes reserving and affording a rental car, yay!! Last but not least, is the wedding gift, and spending money. Ill get there. (Hopefully before April, too!!)

Things have been looking up, I rearranged my bedroom, so I have a TON more floor space, and the abundance of carpet has inspired me to keep my room relatively tidy and organized, which is a tad unheard of for me...maybe I should rearrange my car. ;)

So I have this drawer in my desk and it is so full of candy that I can barely close it... What does one do with oodles and oodles of Dum-Dums, Kisses, Suckers, SweeTarts, Conversation hearts, Dove Promises, Cadbury Mini Eggs, Milky Way Caramels, Charleston CHews, Lifesavers, Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, and assorted other yummies? I have to rid myself of at least SOME of it, #1 before it goes bad and #2 because I'm moving desks sometime in the not-so-distant future.

I have sort of started on this kick to de-clutter my life, so if you're a size 6, 6.5, 7ish shoe, and are interested, let me know, I have lots of shoes I'm looking to donate or whatever. I'm listing some stuff on eBay, too. Go me, I'll get it done eventually. Ive just come to the realization that I don't NEED all this STUFF. I think I do when I buy it.. but maybe I should start telling myself now, even if it IS the deal of the century ($450 Tom Ford Sunglasses For $97)<----never worn. I don't NEED anymore makeup- so perhaps I should stay away from the MAC store...and Sephora, and maybe even ULTA, for good measure. (this counts websites too!!) In fact, perhaps I should avoid shopping venues of any kind (with the exception of grocery stores), because I buy stuff cause Im bored, not because I need it (case in point: fuchsia cowl neck satin shirt I'm wearing today- did I need it? No. I bought it cause I was bored the other night). I also need to start cooking at home more... I'm really starting to get sick of fast food, and the only restaurant cravings I have lately are for a Mushroom Swiss burger dipped in Ranch dressing, a Hawaiian Burger from Rocky's Bar in Grand Rapids, MI, and a Maui Banana milkshake from Fatburger. Side note: whose brilliant idea was it to name a restaurant Fatburger? It's probably to their benefit that their milkshakes are divine, though I'm not ga-ga for their burgers... otherwise in the health/weight obsessed times we live in, and the shitty economy they'd go out of business, based on the disgusting sound of their name alone. Bleck!


Happy Belated V-day, Happy Early St. Pat's, see you around Easter.. (jk, I'll blog before then...unless I get eaten by the garbage monster that resides in my car)

Life with gratitude.

I get to go home!!! I'm more excited that I can convey in a blog. It's been 8 months since I've set foot in Michigan, and longer since I've been home, to where I grew up. I'm so thrilled to be seeing family and perhaps a few friends, and my niece and nephew (the Aussie Shepherd, and the Black Lab mix, Mira and Yukon, respectively). I'm looking forward to familiar surroundings and people, and a warm fireplace.

I'm so thankful for all the blessings in my life, be they in MI or here in Las Vegas....

I'm thankful...
...for my family, who support me in all of my decisions, no matter how harebrained.
...for my friends, who befriended me despite my goofy looking exterior and even goofier personality.
...for you. Thank you for being who you are.
...for my job, which is expanding my horizons, and pays my bills.
...for the amazing people that I've met in my life that have molded who I am.
...for Wendy's Dollar Menu, cause it is tasty and cheap.
...for the fact that it is 60°, when it could be only 30°.
...for the fact that I have an education that provides me with a means to succeed
...for the fact that I am able to afford (sort of) to further that education and learn to do something I truly love.
...for pumpkin pie, because Thanksgiving isn't the same without it.
...for significant others in the lives of those that I love, because you've made her life so much better, and you made the inner her that we all love come back to us.
...for my co-workers, because they make the workday go just a little bit faster.
...for facebook and myspace, believe it or not, because they've made it possible to reunite with old friends, and to meet new ones.
...for Thanksgiving leftovers, because nothing is like turkey and gravy with mashed potatoes over one of Aunt Roxanne's homemade rolls the next day. MMMM. (I seriously look forward to this almost more than the actual dinner itself)
...for Northwest Airlines and Delta Airlines, because they make it possible for me to spend the holidays this year with my family.
...for love, because it really does make the world go 'round.
...for the bad things in my life, because they make it possible to truly appreciate the amazing things and people that I DO have.

What are YOU thankful for?

Life in the outskirts of a toxic relationship.

What is the proper method of approaching a situation in which someone you care deeply about as both an extremely close friend and something more is being mistreated? I don't want to badmouth, I don't want to be the bad guy, but he deserves SO much better. He deserves someone to love him for who he is and who he might be, not for what he can do for them, or their ego. He is a great person, smart, strong, hardworking, and funny. She exploits his giving nature, and uses it for her personal gain, and then when the giving stops, or things don't go her way she acts like a 2-year-old in the midst of a temper tantrum, with snarky remarks and other such niceties. Who knows, maybe I only hear the bad stuff, but to be honest, the bitch would have to shit diamonds and piss Cristal to outweigh all the bad. I worry about him, though he's stronger now, more sure of what he wants and how he plans to get it. I worry that she is going to take him down again, and make him her puppet. She seems toxic, unhealthy, negative. Can a person change themselves that much? Is the effort put forth worth the gain of having her in his life? Is the fact that her jealousy over female friends of his might tear apart not just the friend relationship, but the thus poorly patched remnants of their past relationship worth it? Things may get better, things may not, I just get so angry at how he's treated. I can accept not sharing his life as a lover, I can't accept not sharing it as a friend at all. I understand that he loves her, and always will, but is the risk worth the return? Time will tell I suppose. I hope things work out for the best, whatever that may be.

Life in a shitstorm.

My life is a whirlwind of shit, flying around. Some hits me, with its putrid stink and horridness, some I manage to dodge... I'm getting to a point where I don't know what to do to help anymore. There's nothing I CAN do to help anymore. I need to know where I stand. I care so much about him, it's beginning to teeter on the edge of the dreaded "L" word, but I can't let that happen. I can't fall too fast, I can't jump in head first. He is amazing, though he doesn't think so. There are so many incredible things about him, I love that he's funny, and smart, I love his glasses, I love the tiny patch of fur at the base of his back. I love that he gives me a hard time, but pushes me forward and encourages me, too. I love that he is sensitive, that he is caring, and thoughtful. I love that he can cook, and that he cleans, and that he hangs his shirts up wet from the washer on Sunday nights. I love his obsession with his board, the way he treats his friends. I love that he's always there to lend a helping hand. I love the roadmaps on his shins. I love that he worries about my well-being. I love his hugs, his lips, his tongue. I love his goofy faces, and the crinkles by his eyes when he smiles. I love his obsession with minty hard candies. I love that he wears a Thrasher shirt with a Rolex, and Armani in the same day. I love that he is nerdy, and artistic, and musical. I love that he pushes on, regardless of his pain. I love his cat. I love his taste in furniture. I love his hairy toes, even though he makes fun of mine. I love his bellybutton and his boyish charm. If I put all this on digital paper, will it help evict it from my brain? I need to stop thinking about my feelings, and make sure he's ok. I need him to be happy. I want him to be happy. If he's happy with her, that's ok.

Life with furry toes.

Ok, I admit it, I'm a freak, I have a bit of blonde peach fuzz that is completely invisible on my feet. Guess what? I'm not getting rid of it, it keeps me warm.

Life in an uneventful world.

Ugh. I love living here in Las Vegas, its a fun city. However, when you're single, know only a few select people, and don't have a shitload of money, you get insanely bored and very, very lonely. I don't mind doing things on my own and being alone, I'm fine with that. It just sucks that I don't have anyone to talk to that can relate to my daily life, hang out with, or just shoot the shit and laugh. I miss that. I miss home.

I've decided my quest is to find something to occupy my time....not someONE, someTHING. I think this is where I've gone wrong thus far. I can entertain myself, and have done so for 27 years, why should Las Vegas be any different?

If anyone has ideas on what I could do, inexpensive hobbies (preferably ones that avoid the sun... you know.. pale, pale, white girl) I'd be more than appreciative.

On second thought...maybe I should clean my room and finish unpacking... I mean.. I have lived here since April ;)

Life with luck.

I found a penny today in a parking lot...heads up. I put it in my shoe.